I moved on a bit. But now that you aren’t on my mind its back on myself. Maybe I was using losing you as a distraction from how unhappy I am with myself. I love who I am but now how I look. I feel more disgusted than usual. It’s even becoming hard to wear my crop tops anymore. Maybe it’s the weather or the season change . I don’t know. I still miss you. I saw your snapchat the other day. It surprised me that it was even in my feed. I thought you deleted me from those things. I wished it was of your face. I debated Snapchatting you but I remembered it’s not worth it. You will end up ignoring it . I just wish I could talk to you , even if only for a minute. I have moved on though, a little. But I still try to keep the focus off of me. I’m sorry.